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Getting under the skin of Psoriasis

So I read this article in the newspaper this morning

http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/features/6599095/Psoriasis-sufferer-proud-to-reveal-sores-to-the-world.html

And I just wanted to do a quick blog about it because I am full of pride and support for this amazing lady. Not just because she is incredibly strong but because I know her story – I know it because I have lived it.

Whilst I am not going to give you a full biography of my life with psoriasis, I will give you the bare bones of it.

I have suffered with psoriasis since I was 3yrs old. All through both primary and secondary school I was teased relentlessly by certain individuals who told me that I was ugly, that I had “the lurgy” etc. They told other kids not to hang around with me or they would catch it too.

My teenage years were the worst. I hated school. I had very few friends, I had absolutely no self confidence or self belief. Puberty made my psoriasis even worse and much of my hair fell out. I hid my skin under long sleeve blouses and tights that itched the hell out of me but were better than having my skin on show.

All through this time I was back and forth to the hospital, trying every possible treatment under the sun. Dozens of different steroid creams, soaking in coal tar baths, being smothered in emollients and wrapped in bandages. I couldn’t wait to leave school at 16 so I went to college instead. Unfortunately things weren’t much better there.

When it came to the world of work I was lucky to be able to get good employment, but one employer made my life very difficult. When my skin got so bad due to the stress of working there and I was hospitalised with life-threatening erythrodermic psoriasis, I was “let go”.

In my early 20s my skin started to improve a little and so I changed – I had a small circle of friends, I became outwardly confident to make up for the fact that inside I was still nervous about rejection.

My tale has a happy ending though. When I was 23 I met my now-husband. Granted my skin was mostly under control at the time, but there have been times when I have been suffering badly with it, particularly during my pregnancies when it is not possible to take drugs to keep it under control. But my husband is amazing – he has only ever seen ME and not my skin. To the point that he only really notices if it has flared up because of the way that it affects me – the itching, the slight depression that accompanies it worsening.

So now, 2015 and I am a happily married mum of two – which during my teenage years felt like something I would never achieve. I am still taking strong chemotherapy drugs which – touch wood – are working well to keep my skin under control. I can’t remember the last time I felt the necessity to cover my face with a scarf or my arms with a cardigan.

And whilst I am nowhere near as brave and strong as this beautiful lady is, I can honestly say that I am over hiding away. The important people love me no matter how my skin looks.

So I applaud this amazing lady for being so confident, so strong and so inspiring. She proves that true beauty is a whole lot more than what is on the outside.

If you would like further information on psoriasis then I can highly recommend that you check out https://www.psoriasis.org/about-psoriasis

Thanks for reading

Dee xoxox

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Confidence is Beauty & Beauty is Confidence

I saw this on Facebook today and had to share it. I’ve seen so many friends constantly put themselves down because they aren’t happy with their body. If you aren’t happy then by all means work to make yourself happy.

But…..

Putting yourself down all the time isn’t sexy, beautiful or endearing. It’s downright annoying and can be perceived as attention-seeking. Your true friends will love you no matter your shape or your size. I know I’m carrying a bit of extra weight still, but I also know I’m fabulous on the inside and that is ultimately what counts. 

Confidence is Beauty and Beauty is Confidence. Hold your head up high.  

 

Cutting the string update

Hello lovelies!

I have been neglecting my blog a lot lately and for that I am sorry. I have been pretty much working non-stop setting up my business and work orders have been coming in thick and fast. It’s also been Easter holidays and so my terrors have been at home for over a fortnight, meaning I have been struggling to keep all the balls in the air.

We haven’t done a weigh in in a little while as the weight loss seems to have plateaued and it was getting depressing only seem very small amounts each week, so instead we decided to weigh in less often at the moment. I am going to do my next weigh in on Monday 11th May so just about 3 weeks away, and hopefully I will have a significant loss to report. Fear not though, I am still hovering somewhere between 12st 12 and 13st 1lb which is where I have been for the last month. The string of this yoyo is still firmly cut!

The plateau has been a little hard going to say the least, I keep trying not to feel like crap and then something happens and I still feel like a whale. However today I tried on most of my summer clothes ready for my holiday in May and I was extremely pleased to see that the shorts I was wearing last summer are now falling down……

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That has given me a massive boost and I am happy to resign these pairs to the charity bag! I can also get on my size 14 denim shorts that I love again, so am really pleased about that too!

I have fallen off the exercise wagon due to lack of time the last month or so, but I am determined to make even just 20 mins every day for a little bit of cardio or resistance training.

I will see you back here on the 11th May where I will hopefully be reporting a nice weight loss!

Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Dee xoxoxox

#Stretchyselfie

So I have been neglecting my blog again due to hectic work schedule and two small people being off school for the Easter Holidays, but I read something today and I wanted to blog about it.

On Facebook there was a post shared by a friend of mine about Chrissy Teigen. For those of you who don’t know she is an American model who has been in Sports Illustrated, and is also married to John Legend. And do you know what else… she has stretchmarks!

Yes that is what this post was about, she had shared a pic of her with said stretchies on show, with part of the caption reading “stretchies say hi”. So it’s true, even slim beautiful models like Chrissy Teigen get stretchies. Of course we knew this, but there is still such a taboo surrounding them. People think that they are ugly and try and cover them up. Truth is, real women get stretch marks.

And before anyone says – no this isn’t an attack on people without them. I really don’t give a shit what your skin looks like, trust me, I have had enough of my own skin-related drama’s to be not in the least bit phased by ANY skin condition!

But I do applaud Chrissy for sharing hers with the world, and it got me thinking that if more of us shared pictures of our stretchies then perhaps, just maybe, people wouldn’t feel so bad about them. I certainly don’t want my 8yr old impressionable daughter and my nieces growing up in a world where they may be ashamed or embarrassed of the way that they look. And I also don’t want my son growing up in a world where women are judged and viewed differently based on lines that may or may not appear on their stomach. Obviously this is only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to the whole debate around ‘ideal bodies’ and I will save that for another day.

But coming back to stretchies, I am going to share mine too, because do you know what, they are just marks, they don’t define anything about me, not even the fact that I am a mother as women who don’t have children get them too. They are just marks and I’m not phased by having them. So here is my #stretchyselfie for the world to see.

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I encourage all women, no matter what the shape or size, to accept their stretchies and not be fazed by them. After all beauty is not stretch mark deep!

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March: this month I will…

Is it just me? I cannot believe we are already in March, where has the last three months gone? I mean I am absolutely longing for sunshine, flip flops, bbqs and balmy Sunday afternoons walking along by the seafront. I literally cannot wait! But I still can’t get my head around the fact that it is March. It’s quite frightening how quickly the year goes. And it also reminded me of some of my plans for this year that have gone by the wayside, so there are some things that I need to get back on track with…. and that has inspired this little blog post.

So, this month I WILL…….

1. Get back on track with C25K. As many of you who follow this blog will know, I started C25K at the start of February and completed the first week, and started the second. Then I managed to strain a muscle and was advised to take a break. And then it was half term so I was unable to get the time to start again. Well, we’ve got another 4 weeks until the kids break up for Easter so I am determined to start again this week – and this time do the whole lot outdoors. So tomorrow I am going to start C25K from the very beginning again and make sure I manage at least the first 4 weeks. And then I will just have to find the time to go when the kids are off.

2. Crack on with another little side project I have going on. Can’t say too much about this one, but its something I have been meaning to do for a long time. It’s one of those things that I am just not sure how to actually start though. But I can’t keep putting it off, I need to take action!

3. Remember to do my toning exercises – every day! No excuses! I’m trying to do a few moves to tone up my bum, tum and upper arms and apparently the key is to do them every day. It only takes 15 min so I need to make the time!

4. Blitz our wardrobes ready for summer. A massive clear out. We have too much stuff!

5. Clean the oven……… meh!

Okay I have declared them all here so that means I have to do them! Starting with the exercises…… after I’ve persuaded myself to move off the sofa!

Week 8 weigh in (a smidge early)

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We are doing the week 8 weight in a little early – 2 days early to be exact. Why you ask? Well we have been really strict with the diet all week in a bid to shift some of the weight we put on last weekend when we had a bit of a blip due to a bereavement in the family. But – and here it is – we are actually away tonight at a charity fundraiser – so will be having a few drinks and making the most of our first child-free night AWAY in years. In fact it may actually be our first child-free night away since our wedding night in 2008! That said, we are still going to try and make as many good choices as possible. I have just made myself a bowl of strawberries, topped with 0% fat raspberry yoghurt, for a filling and healthy breakfast! We are also taking the kids out to lunch before we go, and they have asked for Harvester which is great as I can have the pasta dish I love that comes in under 500 calories! Oh and of course the salad cart!!!

So it may seem like cheating a little, but we have decided to weigh in today, record our results from 5 days of eating clean. And then we wont weigh in again until Monday 9th March. I think doing this will yield not only more positive results, but a more positive mental attitude! Yes, I said it PMA!

You know the low you sometimes experience if you don’t see a loss, especially when you have been trying so hard. It can affect your motivation for the rest of the time. So hopefully by weighing in today we will keep our motivation for the rest of the time til we weight in again on 9th March!

My WLJ

5th January       14st 10 3/4lb

12th January     14st 1 3/4lb        loss 9lbs!

19th January     13st 12 1/2lb      loss 3 1/4lb

26th January     13st 9 1/2lb       loss 3lb

2nd February     13st 8 1/4lb       loss 1 1/4lb

9th February      13st 5 1/4lb      loss 3lb

16th February    13st 3 1/2lb      loss 1 1/4lb

23rd February    13st 6lbs          gain 2 1/2lb

28th February    13st 2.5lbs       loss 3.5lbs       total loss to date: 21 and 3/4 lbs

Hubby’s WLJ

5th January       22st 2 1/2lb

12th January     21st 4 1/2lb      loss 12lbs!

19th January     20st 13 1/4lb    loss 5 1/4 lb

26th January     20st 10 1/2lb    loss 2 3/4 lb

2nd February    20st 10 1/4lb    loss 1/4lb

9th February     20st 5 1/4lb      loss 5lbs

16th February   19st 13 1/4lb    loss 6lbs!

23rd February   20st 1 1/4lbs    gain 2lbs

28th February   19st 10 1/4lbs  loss 5lbs     total loss to date: 34 1/4lbs

Absolutely chuffed to bits with the losses this week! Definitely a big motivator to keep making healthy choices!

Thanks for your continued support!

Week 7 Weigh In – The Blip

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Well we have had a bit of a blip week this week. It started off well, then we both got rotten colds and craved sugar/energy, and finally towards the end of the week we had a family bereavement and had a couple of non-tracking days where we opened the wine and ate what we wanted. We just needed a few days I think.

So this week we have both put weight on. I don’t think its that bad really considering the non-tracking and also the fact its the first week in 7 that we have put anything back on. So in the grand scheme of things I would still say we are winning the fight against the flab. But I would rather be honest and document it than pretend it didn’t happen. Otherwise it would be all too easy to stay off the wagon.

My WLJ

5th January       14st 10 3/4lb

12th January     14st 1 3/4lb        loss 9lbs!

19th January     13st 12 1/2lb      loss 3 1/4lb

26th January     13st 9 1/2lb       loss 3lb

2nd February     13st 8 1/4lb       loss 1 1/4lb

9th February      13st 5 1/4lb      loss 3lb

16th February    13st 3 1/2lb      loss 1 1/4lb

23rd February    13st 6lbs          gain 2 1/2lb        Total loss to date: 18 3/4lbs

Hubby’s WLJ

5th January       22st 2 1/2lb

12th January     21st 4 1/2lb      loss 12lbs!

19th January     20st 13 1/4lb    loss 5 1/4 lb

26th January     20st 10 1/2lb    loss 2 3/4 lb

2nd February    20st 10 1/4lb    loss 1/4lb

9th February     20st 5 1/4lb      loss 5lbs

16th February   19st 13 1/4lb    loss 6lbs!

23rd February   20st 1 1/4lbs    gain 2lbs       Total loss to date: 29 1/4lbs

We are getting fully back on track this week now starting today now we have had a couple of days off to get our heads straight. We are away Saturday night for a charity function, but going to try and think sensible with regards to food and drink.

I have a maths exam this week, but am hoping to fit some exercise in now the kids are going back to school!

Wish us luck!